I just woke up

I woke up early this morning from a somewhat disturbing dream.

I was escaping from a ruinous cityscape in a runaway vehicle with others including a little girl who seemed to be family to me. The vehicle was a minivan that was ripped open and could not stop. Like a train on a track.

We had to jump off into the grass as we reached our destination which was a meeting point to escape apocalyptic world of the dream. After we leaped off I asked the little girl if she was okay and she and I and a small group of people walked towards a building.

Someone asks me what I was going to do next. I said, "Start over like we all must. But we can never forget where we came nor how we got to this point."

I was sad but hopeful. The next thing that happened was that I was erecting a monolith with a history written on it's surface above the ground. The surface below had a cipher on how to translate what was written above, like a rosetta stone.

It was the end of the modern world in the dream. I know what it means in context of my life though. A lot has happened in a very short time. Frightening things. Things are ending and changing. But of course that part of me that is always optimistic (a part that has been failing me lately) was telling me that things will work out.

The symbolism is fairly easy to decipher. The ruined city is my situation at the moment. The runaway vehicle is my feeling of being out of control of my own life. The little girl is the part of me I am trying to protect, future. The monolith is my memory. The history written is the part I must not forget and the cipher is my future. The cipher is buried because I have to find my future and discover what it is bit by bit.

I'm stressed so I shouldn't be surprised by it. Obviously things have to change. Change is frightening but change is what's happening whether you make it your self or just let it happen.