Beautifully Calming

This is a very cool video of a moving sculpture at BMW museum. Enjoy.

Lets try this again..

I tried to post a very long poem via phone. It didn't work. Try again.

The distance between the stars compare not to the depth of my love
Nor does it express the ache in my heart caused by time apart
A simple trinket or a glance at a portrait eases such pain
But brief is the relief of such a thing to me
Longing for a touch and a whisper overwhelms more and more
Dreams of soft skin touched with back of hand
Of warm breath bringing the kiss of life in the dark of night
Wishing for a voice so sweet to carry a familiar name lifting me up to the heavens in comfort
Distance oh shorten your measure day by day so that my love shows ever greater in comparison as does it feel
You are but a temporary thing and love, Eternal

Copyright © Arthur Edwardson

Goals

Goals are a wonderful thing. Goals are something everyone has whether they call them that or not. Going to the store is a goal. Eating breakfast is a goal. Simple goals but goals non the less. It is the far reaching goals that we have trouble with. Well, I do lately. Goals were easy when I was younger. I wanted a job, I got one. I wanted to go to a concert, I went. I wanted a new record, I bought one. (Records are round vinyl disks with grooves that play music for you real young ones.) I even wanted to get married and have children. I did it.
Now goals, the far reaching ones, seem so hard to get to. The gap seems enormous lately. Much like the wonderful Voyager probes that are so far away from their home planet. But they have an on going goal. To forever record data and tell us puny humans what is out there in the great blackness of space.
Of course my goals are not so far from me as that. The metaphor just fits my mood today. I am usually very positive, if a bit naive on how to achieve those goals.
Again I am reminded of the saying, If you fail to plan, you plan to fail. I wish I wasn't so bad at planning. Well, I do know how to plan. Today I made progress in the goals I have which is good. I just realized that what I am bad at is dealing with fears I have. The What ifs creep in and latch on. If I do this what happens the other thing? I've said before, I hate What ifs.
I have a lot of fears it seems. I am afraid of loss. I haven't had a lot I guess. It is the ones that hurt the most that cling to me and whisper that they could happen again. The sad thing is, I believe that I may be making them happen again. What a terrible and evil thing to happen. I don't want them to happen. It's those damn What ifs. They are paralyzing at times. So you sit and wait. Wait for what? The inevitable I guess. Inaction only prolongs things. Not just the good things but the bad ones too.
I have two goals. They are wonderful goals and compatible. Stupid fears and What ifs put themselves between them. Between is were I have put myself and I need to be beside each. That may seem like being between but it is being beside each, together.
Perhaps I have to let a power bigger than me take over and guide me to my goals. For the last decade I have had little faith in the existence of god. I like to think that that power is within mankind itself. Would it hurt to let go and let god? I don't know. All I do know is that I need some help.
So God, if you are out there, help me. I know the kind of man I can be. I have met him before. He is great and confident and without fear. He is a good father and a good partner. A man people enjoy being around and that some look up to. I pray that you help me find him again. I see him in the corner of my eye on occasion. Take the blinders away, remove the fears and strengthen my shoulders so that I may carry the burdens any man has. Let the ones I love know that they may rely on me and trust in me. Let me know I may rely and trust in myself. Bless the actions I have taken and the ones I will take to reach my goals. Bless the ones I love. Thank you.

Learning

Weekend Challenge: “Life without balance can cost you your relationships. Life without balance can cost you your health. Life without balance can cost you your spirituality. Life without balance can cost you your wealth & your happiness. So find things to motivate you from all areas of life. Your success depends on it.” -Jim Rohn *How will you find & keep the balance in your life this weekend?

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Dalai Lama

"Happiness is not something ready made. It comes from your own actions."


If any man is the living embodiment of goodness, godliness and wisdom on this earth, it is his Holiness Dalai Lama.

Loneliness cont.

It happened again Saturday night. I found myself surrounded by friends and family, enjoying an evening of cards and  conversation with food and drink mix in. I brought a bread loaf stuffed with a cheese dip made with beer. The theme was Beer and Cheese by the way. It wasn't the only cheese beer dip but everyone sampled all that was available. Again, it was good to see people I only see at these little gatherings, plus to meet a couple of new people. This is something I have enjoyed in the past. But this night the food tasted like ash and the drink, only dirty water.

Of course, I missed the person I love. Surrounded by people that liked and

Osama bin Laden is dead

All across the internet the news of the leader of Al Qaeda's death is being announced. I see on Facebook and Twitter the God bless America, Hallelujah's and celebrations going out to friends and family. It is no small thing that this has happened and it is a step to healing the world's wounds. But let us not forget, that is still little comfort to some that have lost family in the towers and the consecutive wars because of this man.

The death of one man can not change that we live in a world that fears others ways and beliefs. Let us not celebrate but go forward to make the world a place where men like him are no longer created nor tolerated in anyway. I hope our men and women involved in this operation are safe and well. I hope you that have lost love ones can take some comfort in justice being served. Let us celebrate liberation and togetherness. Evil gets too much attention. Only acknowledge it when acts, not when it dies. As Spock has said over and over again, Live long and prosper. Celebrate that.
Below is the announcement from President Barack Obama.